[Attention! If you are sensitive to mental health topics, refrain from reading.]


And... I'm missing again.
I've been really good at selfharm for the last six months and my condition has been more stable. But the last month has just killed me. And, unfortunately, almost literally.

I lost it on myself again, pretty much, and it almost came to the last point.
Yesterday I found out that I have been drinking drugs that were incorrectly sold to me at the pharmacy for two weeks, perhaps this has greatly affected me, which is why this condition has worsened.

For the last two weeks, my head has been steadily spinning from time to time, my eyes are getting dark, and my arms and legs are shaking violently or just can't hold.

But I'm really trying. I try to avoid this and go through everything in a lighter form. And I try to hope for the best, and that everything will be fine in the end.

I would also like to apologize to my customers, because I miss deadlines. I will try to finish everything as soon as possible.
And please don't judge me if you suddenly see YCH in my profile before your commission. I still need to live on something: to pay utilities and medicines.

I'm really sorry. And I'm ashamed. I am a responsible person, and I am very annoyed that I cannot consistently do my job. But I will try my best.

Thanks for reading it.