hello everyone. just a little update. im still not doing well mentally after the incident that happened on the 2nd of this month. and my mother is back in the hospital again. and to top the shit cake, i hit a cat that darted infront of me yesterday and it tore me to pieces. i don't think it suffered, and i moved it off the road and wrapped it in towels. i feel like a monster. i couldn't stop, it was an accident but i feel disgusted with myself.

im trying to get back to work, but with the shooting/homecide i witnessed and then that happening yesterday coupled with my mom being severely ill its hard to do anything. ill see my dr next week. im hoping perhaps she can perscribe me something for my anxiety and depression. i see my therapist on the 5th of dec.

i appreciate everyones patience with me. my brain is unwell. and i feel sick constantly. im trying to fix everything. i feel like im stuck in a hole and i can't climb out. but im going to try to get better for everyone. thank you for understanding.