I dunno, guess I just wanna get thoughts out. Been up the past few nights thinking about people and things, relationships I could've worked out better, friends I could've kept more in contact with. I've been losing a lot of faith in myself lately. Never really thought I was a good person, but as of late I've felt even more in the red than usual. I've had so many falling-outs with way too many people, most of which I just, don't talk to anymore. And half of them were just a reclusion of contact that led to us simply not talking anymore. A few have stuck in particular, and usually I can block them out alright, but it's really been hitting hard and I don't know what to do with myself to feel any sort of productive again.

I wish it were easier to stop lingering on mistakes, because it feels like a curse at this point.