**lights up a Viginia Slim 120**

Ok everyone I'm still alive, survived the holidays but my schedule isnt done yet.. I'm helping my
little sister with her stuff right now as her dads in the hospita for surgery prep. Then tomorrow at 8:15 Am her father will be in sugery.
So I am FUCKING Tigress ASS Booked, but I will chech in to FA when time motherfucking allows!
I've been up for the last 47+ hours, as I still have things to Fuck off the checkfucking list!

So I LOVE you all dont mistake my Tigress irritability for being rude or uncaring! I do care and have been up wayFucking too long! @_@ , but have 546467467475647564678546778979089 million things to do.
***huggs everybody lovingly**

Gotta go, Love yah guys!

**walks back twitching from being up o long**

**lights up a Kiss super slim energy cigarette**

Well Chistmas was ok, I survived, that and mom tigers cooking too, WOW she went fucking ape ass nuts, tried her best to stuff my tigress ass! but my tigress body had other ideas, it all came up later sadly as my tigress body gets really fucked off easliy with food,, but was great going down *LOL* ^_^ I got a few things I wanted!

I MISSED ALL Of you! Oh and MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!! I know its late, but I didnt get back to my apartmnt till leik just a bit ago ***rests is tired**

Well I'll try to be on more after the main holliday time, yu know me cant keep this tigress away!

I love you guys! I'll see you all later!

**goes off to rest after everything, smoking on the way to her tigresses den, playing Orgy-Stitches in her headphones**

***lights up a Misty Blue 120***

Ok guys & Girly Furs! I'm ok for one, and two I've been fucking busy as shit helping family out at mom's place for the holidays! So if I dont get back right away, its prolly cuz I'm burried under Chistmas lights & tree XD ^_~

Otherwise all is well as can be, given my situation and all. My lill Sises Father he's stable and will have surgery on
January 17th! Things are good otherwise for her & her family! She's stabalised a bit more as her dads ok.

Well everybody I wish you ALL A Merry Chistmas! as I'ma be away till around may be New years, I'll try to get on on the 24th to Wish all I can here a Merry Christmas !

Love all of you Girly Furs & Guy furs!!!

***Lights up a Marlboro**

Ok, updating some stuffs!

I've been pretty fuckin busy, and feelin somewhat better! things are stable for my little sisters father, he will see his doctors tomorrow for a surgery briefing, then we'll know more..I'll update you all on it!

Other than that, I'm ok, and keeping my place up, went grocery shopping, holly fuck foods expensive! I only get $160.00 a month from SSI to spend on it, geeza fuckin loo it goes fast! but I'm managing every penny!

Otherwise all else is good! I see FA is busy getting new management, hope that goes well too!

WEll all I have to go, need a nap ^_^

See you guys later!

**walks off to her tigresses den to bed**

Hey everyone, yeah I havent died, I'm here! NO FUCKING ALIENS didt take me either! *LOL*

Well as was last week late Friday my Little Sis, had her family crisis father is ill, and was addmitted to the VA hospital, freeked the fuck out of her, she had to dial 911 and deal with all that shit too, I felt so badly for her!, she's only 15, and severly mentally ill too, it was a pretty rude shock to her.

I was on the phone with her daily, her father is home now as will be in surgery several weeks from now, to remove a bad gallbladder, ruptured appendix and hernia.. So hopefully in 8 weeks after her fathers surgery, he will get better and will be ok..

Otherwise I'm my self fair to so so my self, besides frequent dry heaves, nausia.. I'm ok.
I LOVE YOU ALL!!! ***GIVES BIG TIGRESS GROUP HUGG TO ALL**
Thanks everyone for being here for me!

***Goes off to her tigresses den to rest and smoke a bit, puts on Orgy- "Stitches"***

***smokes a Marlboro 100 Red Label ,trying to ignore dull blinding nausea**

Sorry everyone, I have my tigress body really fucked up right now.. it is cycling through one of those things, as I'm throwing up on and off, between long sleeps and showers to wash and warm up, there's nothing like the feel of very warm water, after throwing your fucking ass up, it just feels like heaven!I feel SO fucking COLD allot, but the hot showers are like paradise!!, I'll be ok, its been like this for me since I was a tigress cuby!

I'll be ok though! I've been here before! Cigarettes tend to back off the nausea a bit making life bearable! Otherwise everything's relative!

***goes crawls off to her Tigresses den to sleep**

See you all later ,Love you guys! Thanks to ALL for the watches and kind words! PS Vladi , BladeTheSaber,  BladeTheSaber Thanks for being here for me, as with everyone too!

**Lights up a cigarette, drags and types**

Hi, guys I have been away as I have not been feeling to great, that and my younger Sister has been having serious emotional/mental health issues I needed to help her with and her family, I'm still feeling kinda tough, but I'll be on as often as possible! Right now my yiffyness is on indefinite hold, as when you feel sick as I do, you cant stand the sight of food, let alone sex, so I'm gonna be trying to get better more than anything else!

Other than that I mISSED YOU ALL!!! Thank you for the NEW WATCHES! I'm very appreciative of it!! Well guys I need to go, sorry for being away for while!

***hugs all the Smexy furr's**

**sitts relaxes lights up a cigarette**

Sorry everybody, been busy as ever keeping things up, getting out to exercise as always keeping hard thin and fit, between sicknesses, and watching my food extremely close as not to exceed my food budget otherwise I'll starve more than I already do, *LOL* WTF thats so fucking funny in some ways, but otherwise I'm good, mom tiger is begging me to move back in with her to her tigresses den, I said FUCK NO tigress Woman, NOT FUCKING HAPPENING!! As she's worried I'm a bit too thin, but I'd rather be too FUCKING THIN than be annoyed at her all the time to where I wana FUCKING Slit my own Tigress throat then my wrists after living for a while with her!

I'd rather Fucking DIE than be under her controlling paws!!! NO_MOTHERFUCKING_WAY!
So after that cheerfuckingly awesome chat with mom tiger I went out for a 15 mile walk!

Otherwise all is good, down to $61.25 in my account for food the rest of the month! I have tons
of cigarettes so I'll smoke them to edge off the hunger!

Well everyone, I gotta go, Love you!

**walks off to her tigresses den**

***lights up a Misty Blue 120**

Well having a good day, things are well, as I'm on here a little more between sicknesses which I'm so tired of, fucking threw up last night 6 times then dry heaves the rest of the night, till I at 4:45 am lit up a cigarette, which really took the edge offa it! then at 5:53 went to sleep and woke today at 11:17 AM.. Ate a 500 calorie meal, then went of for a couple cigarettes then out for a walk, then on here to finish up old messages~

Otherwise I'm Good, for the Tigress I am!

***sits with her tigress self smoking and relaxing**

Well as you all know, I've had family over for the last near cuople weeks, and SSI didnt fucking freak, but my family is NOW fully FURRY EDUCATED!!! They actually liked it, to my shock, they just were ingnerant of it, so they are now OK with the whole furry fandom thing!

Well in the meatime found a NEW CIGARETTE I LOVE, Viginia Slim's 120's GOLD PACK! Mom tiger gets the goodies like that for me, so all is good the I have a full carton of the Virginia Slim's 120's, it was $74.72 I was leik HOLYFUCKINGSHIT!! OMFG O_O thats fucking expensive!! mom spends an average of $200.00 to $300.00 a month for me on my habbit, I pay her back by helping her with her home and washing her car, mom's got plenty of money, they have a very good business, all is going good there too! But SSI say's that is fine as SO LONG as mom tiger buys them!

Ok everyone I'ma go and rest for a while the family is now left to thier collective places, I'm off to my collective tigresses den!
I'll be ON Next week, Mon or Tues, Wed latest! I need rest! Will answer notes and stuff next week as indicated!

By everyone! see you next week!
LOVE you ALL! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

Ok everyone, I'm busy with family and the like, beeen fucking ill too, but am fighting that and dealing with family visits, things are going good, they fucking finally understand the term FURRY!
So I'm good have two cartons of cigarettes Camel Crush, love those, and Misty Blue 120's, and a pack of Viginia Slims 120's Gold Pack bought lovingly by mom tiger who I adore atm *lol* XD .. KK I wont be able right now to answer NOTES as I'm too Fucked in the Tigress Ass busy, so please do not think I'm ignoring you, I am not!

Well Loves, Lovers and Friends, I must go, family call's!
**huggs yiffs & Kisses to you all**

Plays- Bee Gee's- Man in the middle"
lights up a cigarette, draggs , purrss....Happy Tigressness!

Ok everybody, I've been away a few days getting the appartment ready and sleeping 20 hours a day, with frequent dry heaves, nausea, some throwing up and a little eating inbetween, I'm lucky to hit 1500 calories a day, which I try to stay at, infact on my food buget it's all I can afford to eat, 1500 or less calories .. otherwise I'm so so right now.. I'ma go to bed after posting this journal, I feel it coming on.

Had a fair last week, things are good, got two white lioness plushys instead of the other big one, they ran out, mom re-ordered them for me, I'll snap shots of them and load them, but I'll check the AUP making sure I'm within guidelines of it, as I'm still getting the hang of posting pics!

My family will be visiting me between the 18th and the 26th of August, so, somewhere in there, I'll be away from 4 to 7 days. Otherwise I'm all fucked out, and need to go sleep, and have Happy YIFFY Fucking Dreams!!! :D XD And I think some here know who I'll be dreaming of ~,,,,=~_^=,,,, *LOL* I cannot wait to show my family what the word YIFF / YIFFING is/means XD Oh i'ma have fucking fun with this one! Yeah I'ma Baaddddddd fucked tigress! *LOL* if my family want a demmo of YIFFING, Hmmm I'll give them one, but my family be warned, they wont be the same! like the song from Saliva-Ladies and Gentlemen"

I'll show my FURRY PRIDE to them, they cannot take that from this furry feral tigress!

Well my beloved furends and Bro Kota, and Vladi I must goto my tigresses den, NO-Fucking-mansland! We'll cept for furs who are ALL welcome to come to =^_^=

***goes off to her bed, crawls in hoping to avoid throwing up... lights up a cigarette and smokes it for 10 mins relaxing falling asleep, after putting it out, door's always open**

***playing music- Saliva: Ladies and gentlemen"
lights up a cigarette

Well from Nebraska my aunt Dar and uncle Charles, and aunt Charlotte. They will proll be here last of august, so i'll prolly be off for several days, so dont sound the USAF and US Guard alarms XD *lol* I'll just be with the family stuffs.. They will be staying at my place as mom tigers is too full, SSI says its ok, for a few days, but no more than that.. So, other than that it should b ok.

Keep in mind these are Nebraska folks, they on dad tigers side dont know about me being a tigress furry?!!let alone what a "Furry" is?? So I'ma need my cigaretts!! As i will have to explain it to them, as I have furry stuff all over my apartment. not to mention my plushies which indicate my furry tigress nature too. So this should be interesting. I know them some, but they dont know me too well, as I've kept distant from allot of my family down there, as I've hit heavy flak from them, especially his other sis Dee, gawd she thinks if it isnt farmer jane or farmer joe standards its just CRAZYNESS! She's very narrow minded as are most his family there! I realy avoid Dee, she is after my Tigress Hyde!

Mom called me today to notify me of this, so I'll be away prolly for a while, then I'll be back after the event.. I'll give a full report on all things..

Well i have to go.. gotta get out, smoke and eat dinner!

See you all Monday:

Sweetly

Misty Tigress~

**plays - Tracy Chapman- Fast Car~**
**lights up a MISTY 120 Blue

Yeah its what I did too, got in my car earlier tonight at round 11pm Denver time went out for drive, a long drive, I was hitting 70+ mph I was just going, crying a bit window rolled down, a cigarette lit, trying to clear my fucked up head.., earlier I had one hellishly bad fucked up dream**keep in mind it was only a dream, what I'll describe is just that, my family has NEVER hurt me physically, not that I can remember***!
\
in the dream i was on my back and being beaten to death, I can remember seeing my father, over me yelling at me in cruel words, mom was with him too, she was yelling at me as well as they beat me with what I saw a wood 2x4 board.. I could literally feel the impacts, pain, blood spraying everywhere from inside me, they laughed at me, I said "Why ???? what did I do???" They said "Because we CAN!!!"
I was in my furry anthro tigress form, I was screaming at them to stop, but my bones were already broken,....they I just lay bleeding out from brutal wounds inflicted, shaking and trembling going into shock from wounds inflicted...I remember in another part rolling over and throwing up violently from shock... I then could feel my self dying in my dream, it was terrifying.. I was crying in the dream wondering what the fuck I did to deserve that.. I then collapsed on my chest, facing left breathing slower and slowrer as the life drained from my brutally beaten body, I could feel blood running out of my chest pooling under me, in an ever widening puddle pool.. under my body...

I then woke up in the RL world realizing I was gonna throw up for RL!! as I had, had sever nausia and dry heaves all night earlier, and during the day which i slept away,.. I just fucking made the toilette I threw up for 10 mins straight.. blood came out too.. I then layed up against the wall in the bathroom... crying feeling so fucked and confused...I also had wet the floor , as I didnt realize it till I looked down seeing it all over me... I was shaking so fucking hard..last time I shook like that was when 9/11 happened in 2001/Sep/11th... So
needless to say in 45 mins I was feeling a bit better.. fuck eating, I didnt even wana see food! Drank some warmed coffee and lit up a cigarette, then relaxed enough to go for a two hour drive..
I got out of my car after parking it on the road side..ran out into a field fell to me knees just cried so hard, i dont even know fucking why... I threw up again once... then sat calmly trembling, crying a bit.. just wanting be alone, ... looking up as the air was cool, but not too cool, kinda refreshing... I was prolly 30 or so miles from home, I really didnt care either.... just sat there in my jeans and leather wrap zippered top... looking up at the night sky full moon peeking in and out of the clouds passing over , seeing mountains calming me, hugging me in thier own way...

Got back in my car, then drove back home, lit cigarette, feeling its warmth calming me.. I thought I'd come on here relax a bit, see some friends. FA is comforting to me, I love it here. with all of you my friends , I'm still getting the hang of it, but I'm doing fairly good here!

So here I am calming down...***sits with her friends calming down her tigress self, smoking a cigarette... to the tune of "fast car"**

Plays music: Orgy - "Stitches"

Well thinga are good, slept in this morning, had blinding nausia, headache and dry heaves last night, on and off for 6 hours. went into shock as I was outside trying torelax, but then the neighbors started a fight with eachother that did not fucking help me, I had cold sweat sever dizzyness and all, layed on my tigress back, and I felt better after 25 mins or so.. then later I came back in pawed around here then at 4:45 am went off to bed!
I'm feeling so so right now, but could be worse! Mom tiger is doing ok, as is dad tiger too and everyone else. Otherwise things arent too bad. gonna try out drawing my tigress char, found some good reff's online, with line art. but its gonna be a bit, I need to feel really good before I do it!

Well otherwise I'm fair for now!

**lights up her self a MISTY Blue 120, relaxes**

**Plays NICKELBACK - Gotta be somebody

Ok, well things are improving a bit. Went out this morning early, with mom tigress, went to Wal-mart, got some stuff mom bought me, nice fresh new carton **droolzz** of MISTY Blue 120's, my new taste in flamed pleasures, note the photo's I took in my gallery here, then mom bought me a nice digital camera, cant remember the name, think it was one of those real fancy ones and all, got me a sweet ashtray, two lighters of my choice and a fancy label maker with three fresh rolls of extra tape, as it had one already in it, how convienient....dont we just LOVE AMERICA!! Oh Yes and Denver Colorado too!... Also mom got me a color ink cartridge for meh printer!

We then got me a bit of food, which was nice, as I was down to just one bagel and bottle of water in the fridge! Good thing I stretch it out over the month as my food budget dictates..and that and I dont eat much, which saves bucks! Then got some female tiger body personal things too, needed them too, as is all is good.

My lioness plush mom tiger got me may be here by 2cd to the 6th of august. I'll snap pics of it with meh new fancy camera!

Well I'm feeling real nawsiated, so i must go to my tigresses den and to bed to sleep till late, then mayb I'll be up if I feel it good enough to be??!

***walks off to her tigresses bed/den to sleep the day away, huggs all her friends and FA g'night!****

***Plays NICKELBACK: Savin' Me"

as I type: **lights up a camel full flavor**
**inhales/draggs hard deeply fully, holding in for a bit, letting it consume my soul***



Prison gates won't open up for me
On these hands and knees I'm crawlin'
Oh, I reach for you
Well I'm terrified of these four walls
These iron bars can't hold my soul in
All I need is you
Come please I'm callin'
And oh I scream for you
Hurry I'm fallin', I'm fallin'

[Chorus:]
Show me what it's like
To be the last one standing
And teach me wrong from right
And I'll show you what I can be
Say it for me
Say it to me
And I'll leave this life behind me
Say it if it's worth saving me

Heaven's gates won't open up for me
With these broken wings I'm fallin'
And all I see is you
These city walls ain't got no love for me
I'm on the ledge of the eighteenth story
And oh I scream for you
Come please I'm callin'
And all I need from you
Hurry I'm fallin', I'm fallin'

[Chorus]

Hurry I'm fallin'

All I need is you
Come please I'm callin'
And oh, I scream for you
Hurry I'm fallin', I'm fallin', I'm fallin'

[Chorus]

Hurry I'm fallin'


Kinda how my life feels allot of the time, as the song goes, I'm happy though I'm here with all of my friends, you guys make it possible to bear the unbearable.. I feel so badly for the victims of the resent shooting:

I'm otherwise fair, slept most the day ate one meal for the entire day, I was thinking why the fuck bother, buit I did anyways..., woke up at 11pm few hours ago, sat up in bed thought of a reason to continue living, I found one, coming here and trying to go on, yes I'm depressed, but it could be worse, I know theres other mourning their loved ones who were killed in the shooting, so I know it could be worse for me. I'll keep the victims and families in my thoughts and prayers. I just DONT get it, why DO I try sometimes and some psycho goes and does this, hurting more peoples, making an already fucked world more fucked! Gawd I dont know sometimes!

Otherwise mom tiger is happier now that things are under control as she dictates by law, which she so Sancti-Fucking-moniously reiterates, as the bitch tigress so wants, she fucking gets!
Buying me a lioness plushy , I should be so grateful, god forbid i might not care, Oh I'm sorry I didnt bow befor her royal bitch tigressness ,,l,, <- gives you mom tigress the paw finger***Fehhhhhhh, fuck it**, yeah like that'le make it all nice again between us????.. She's funny you know, mom tigress always was that way, after fucking my life over a bit, then buying me something to appease my already unreal burning wrath inside my hurting, desolate empty emtionally fucked body...
"Yeah thanks mom tiger, a lioness plush always fixes things, your a real sport, you controll everything in my fucked existance!! "

Sorry needed to rant my wrath.. Funny I went out yesterday took a beer bottle I found on the street threw it against a wall, felt fucking good too, EHH! I just needed to, some guy saw me, asked if I was ok??? *LOL* I broke out laughing insanely at him looking wildly, then said coldly to him,

" Yeah I'm fine sweety, this tigress is Fucking Shitastically awesome, YOU keep talking, I'ma throw YOU against the WALL!! Now FUCK OFF HUMAN!!

I was being my bitch tigress furry self! So then I just stood there, eyebrow raised, looking menacing and ready to do war! Then he backed up and ran for dear life! *LOL* I actually felt better, then went for a VERY long walk, I thought things over, as the mountains and such will do that to you!

So for now I'm fair..

**relaxes with everyone**

Plays NICKELBACK - "Gotta Be somebody"

**plays: "ladies and gentlemen" Saliva:
Well now after all the shitastically wonderful family events this fuckedup weekend, I'm just now recovering.....relaxing in my corner of this state at my awesomely small apartment, smoking a cigarette and blasting my music on my PC at 2:30 A"fucking"M

Now down to $2.63 in my SSA/SSI payee account, cant wait to get my check, blow it on rent ect, and a starvation food budget of $160.00 a month.. but I wont grumble, at least I have a place, and food.. a PC too, mom is getting me a lioness plush its 60 inches long, but vit looks nice from the order pic. it was only $134.00 as mom paid for it.., but my SSI rules STATE, I can BORROW, NOT Own, items of ANY value, such as furniture, and other pricey things! its a loop hole mom found out with dad. So they can OWN the items given, but I can borrow them, at no penalty to my SSI check...

Yeah the other thing is I CANNOT seek any employment on my SSI check of $148.00, yet SSA says I can get work, but not earn over $12,000.00 USD annually. What a contradiction. But i wont grumble, I'll make it work till then, I could be on the streets of Denver selling my skinny tigress ass for a pack chicklets.. giving up my soul for a slice of OMG ...wait for it ....*lol* bread!

RP below~

Misty Tigress: Ok pal I want that bread slice, even if its moldy as shit, like you!
So whats your price??

Male human: Ok it'll cost you something... give me "head" I give you tigress bread!

Misty Tigress: Hmm ok, did you wash??

Male human: Uhhm why?? Yeah i washed!

Misty Tigress: Good, cuz I dont give "dirty head" for "dirty Bread"!

Yeah I could see it like that, its a kinda humorous sad reality, my one sister is an escort, gets more money in one day than I make in 6 fucking months!

Well otherwise I'm fair, my nausia is finally gone. just feeling weak and sore all over my tigress bodd, not sure why??! I'ma be in bed in a few mins. So i hope all have a good night here, I do love you ALL!

You too Chuffy! **kisses her Tiger & YES i washed my mouth *LOL* XD**

Never let your family CONTROL YOUR Fucking life! Or put your self in a possition that they can!
Otherwise its been a Shitastically awesome fucked day!

The ONLY good part of it was when I drove home thinking of Heath/Chuff Tiger in my highly erotically hawt tigress fantacies, for two hours doing things with him in my head and in my car , I cannot say here, as I drove home in Denver in my Datsun 240Z.
his/Heaths pics are just mindblowingly awesomeness, in my email!

***sits licking her bleeding wounds, momma tigress inflicted, ears flat hard hot low growl,
burning flames licking off her tigress body, cigarette in her paw***

*lol* yeah here in my little place I was up late as now at 3:15 am smoking a cigarette like always this time of morning, as I sleep the day away, from not feeling too good often sadly, I had an epiphany, could some one be willing to let me use thier line art for my tigress char, as I want to draw it out but suck like fuck at it, unless I have a reff, are there any tigers , or tigresses or other fur's willing to help?! look as soon as I get good enough I'll even do a pic for the donaters of thier lined or colored art! Idk if its yiffy or not, I need to make my char.

I just though it over and the ideah sounded good, well at least to me. so what do yah think? i dont mean to begg but I am.

sorry I was away for such a LONG time, but I got ill then it got wild after that with my family.. So after all the dirt and dust has cleared from it all, I'm back! I'm so sorry to all here as I never came back, I wasnt ignoring anyone, my life and past sometimes haunts me and I gotta fucking kill the zombies off, re-bury them! Sorry I pissed off anyone if i did! you know how that is *lol* XD **tigress growl**

**huggs to everyone** I see FA looks a bit different, I love it!
oh meet my newest friend Tigress Sarrah, at SoFurry.
http://wetttigress.sofurry.com/
she made a similar char after mine, as I let her to do so. she like me cant draw shit *lol*

Well I'ma look around! check notes and so-on!

To all my beloved friends I just want to say I'm not feeling well, as I caught a flu bug thing as I need
some time to recover, otherwise I'll be on here when I feel up to it!

Much Love-,thank you
Misty~ <3