So I'm working on a new Fursona & have made a new FA page  lunalovelass
I'd appreciate anyone who wants to keep up with me follow this account as while for now I'm still posting here, very soon I will be posting there.

I'm looking for any artist recommendations who can draw semi-humanoid furry characters. My fursona is looking like it will be a white rabbit. So feel free to plug your favorite artists. I am fairly low on funds, but I'd still like to see what's out there.

Ideally I'm hoping I can bring my tarot card readings to Furaffinity & provide the community with a Furry fortune-teller. I'd also like to upload some writing.

Thank you to those who have welcomed me back, I'm hoping to speak to more of you in the future.♥

It's been 5 years, a lot has changed.

I'm 30 now, I live on my own with my cat Artemis, he's 11.

I got divorced, lived with my grandmother, dated a boy then moved in with him, split up, and lived with my sister only to eventually get a place of my own. I've been living here for 2 years now with my 11-year-old cat Artemis.

Currently, I'm working as a Twitch streamer, a tarot card reader, and a writer working on a visual novel. Life has been crazy, and it's been hard, but I'm happy to be 30, I'm happy I kept my head above water.

I've done a lot of thinking about what's important to me over the years, and what's most important is people. I've been living in isolation for the past 5 years, and now, at 30, I want to change that. So I came here, remembering the warmth of this community.

I'm not sure if I'll stay, I need to see if I can delete & reupload the art I've gotten. I'd also like to change my name from "Yuma", but that's something for another day. I don't know if anyone I used to talk to is still here, but if you are, hey, I probably miss you.

If you want to keep up with me in case I vanish again please follow me on Twitter
https://twitter.com/LunaLovelass

So this is a really weird journal to write as you can probably guess by whatever I've titled it. My life always changed a great deal every time I post, likely because I only post during really important times of my life. My anxiety makes it hard to keep up with anything though I've been getting better. I use twitter avidly.

So anyway I'm going to be brief about this topic.  sultry and I are broken up/getting divorced. I found out 2 months after she got home so this is while still fresh something that has happened. I want to tell my story but I realize that most of you on here are mutuals of the two of us and I don't want to start anything. I've stayed silent until now so why stop that silence right?

Anyway I'll likely do an update journal on "what has changed in my life" which is a lot outside of divorce. Lots of self discovery and whatnot as well as a new living situation.

Anyway that's it from me, sorry to pop in like this but I've been lurking a bit.

Be well everyone.

Hello again everyone it's me again.

So I've taken some time and have worked on establishing a fursona that matches my personality better. It's been tricky with how much I've changed but I just so happened to stumble upon the answer in an MMO I frequent (Mabinogi). I always knew about the Tanuki but I didn't know it's characteristics. A master at transformation Tanuki's are shy and joyful tricksters.

So with that I announce (as if it's that important) my new fursona "Tanuki Girl" That's right I haven't named her lol. If anything I'll likely call her "LilY" or my IGN on Mabinogi "Lilend". However everyone I RP with knows her as Tanuki Girl because in her backstory she doesn't actually know her onw name.

I have also made some changes to my front page though they are slight, more will come soon. I've also gotten an intuos tablet and am working on learning to draw, though with my computer in it's current buggy crashtastic state this is proving difficult so I've been playing alot of OSU :'D

I hope you'e all been well and sorry for my absence as usual lif has been busy. I'm glad to come back to loads of friendly warm comments. You guys are the best and I want to know more of you now that I have more free time.

Oh yeah  sultry is home now and I'm a full time housewife. Life is getting alot less stressful and I'm picking up on healthy habbits. I'm sure you'll hear more from me in the near future.

Hope you all have a good day :'D

So...how to post this without sounding sketchy...well step one would be not to use that as an opening line but tooo late ^_^

I am not going to go into too much detail but I have found work, however it requires I use an alias and stuff. I need to come up with a name that's really girlish and cute. Something that sounds innocent and sweet. That is kind of what I'm going for.

So far I've thought of Lily and that's about it.

Any ideas? Throw all the names at me, as many adorable names as you can think of.

Doing my rounds looking for new Sylveon art, sadly there is not much new art in the Sylveon department. Much sad.

Oh also side thing, working on getting a capture card so I can do pokemon youtube stuff. Getting back into the youtube gaming scene would be nice especially with all my free time and how much of it I invest into pokemon and pokemon related things such as RPs.

Oh btw hi. I know I said I was here to stay and I totes am but I did the poof thing again, sorry guys had to go to LA for immigration stuff.

Oh did I mention We got a yes? Cause we most definitely did. Now I'm just waiting for my wife to get home so I can hug her non stop.

So being back on FA I'm looking at my icon and liking it less and less. It's kind of devious and etc which I wanted at the time but as I said in my last journal I've changed alot and I want to at least reflect that in my icon.

So I'm looking for an artist who draws ADORABLE things. Like I'm talking so cute it will give you cavities. The more cute and innocent she can look the better.

I was going to go to  karrysama but she seems to have vanished into thin air which makes me much sad T^T *sniffle*

Oh also just so we're all clear naturally I'm willing to pay for said art. I just really need a mega cutesie/innocent icon of my character.

So yeah since I've been away if anyone can recommend me someone that would be great as the people I would normally have either vanished or been banned

R.I.P  Kiln .·´¯`(>▂<)´¯`·.

Hey. I don't know how to start something like this after being gone for almost a year now without so much as a word. I figured it was best really, I don't regret dissapearing though I do wish I had kept in better touch with some of you. Alot has changed since I've been here last both in my life and me as a person. I think I've changed a great deal in some ways for better in others for worse but I guess that's just part of growth. I won't get into specifics on here but I've been in and out of the hospital a fair bit and my memory is a biiit bad with regards to the last year or two so please be patient with me if I don't remember things from when I was on here last or if I don't remember you. I'm sure if we spend time talking it will all come back to me. I'm really sorry if this inconveniences anyone.

So enough about me. How are all of you? Tell me about your lives, what's been going on with you? How many of YOU still exist?

So I've been thinking on this for a while. My personality has changed so much from the time of Yuma the Kitsune and although she is still very much a part of me and who I am I think I need to create another fursona that is the other side of me away from Yuma. None of you will likely guess what I have come up with. I've known about it for a long time and I've always been obsessed with them even though they honestly scare me a little but there is a part of me that loves the creepiness and fear they induce. I made the decision on the fursona a while ago but I wasn't sure I would go through with it.

Okay so enough with the suspense that probably wasn't very suspensful. I decided that I am going to create a Spider fursona or more specifically a Jorōgumo it like the Kitsune is from Japanese folklore though the Jorōgumo has a much darker story to it though she still takes on the form of a human to lure men to them much like the Kitsune... it's just... well what happenes to the men is a BIT different.. I feel pretty bonded to this creature for all it's atributes both creepy and cute. I'm still debating on wether to make a new account for this fursona or keep it on this page I'm not sure if I want the two getting mixed up. Naturally I will need art for this fursona which won't happen for a long time like end of summer maybe as I am without job and money.

So what's your imput do you think I should make a new account for this creature or keep it here. I'm wanting to move it to another account but then I'll lose all my wonderful followers in the process. but that's moving I guess you leave behind some people to meet new people.

Anyway thank you for reading.

So I've started up a kind of project. after seeing the tons of youtubers who do "Let's Plays" I decided that I too would start avidly uploading videos of me playing video games and giving commentary like so many other youtubers. I mean I'm not employed right now so why not do this on my free time, place some adds and maybe if I'm lucky aside from having fun I can make some change on the side (not that that is my main goal).

I'd really be interested in having you fine fellows opinions on my channels and feedback on some of my videos. If it's not your thing then no worries but to those of you who are into gaming and the likes if you could check out my channel and give it some love that would really mean alot to me. I'm really trying to take this channel places if I can get the viewers and improve my dialogue during gameplay.

Anyway the channel is http://www.youtube.com/user/PinkChe.....s?feature=mhee my youtube name is PinkCherryCrisis. So yeah go check it out if you've got some spare time I try to upload a let's play every day to second day and right now I'm playing Bioshock.

Thank you all so much for your support I REALLY appreciate it.

So I'm in Texas with my wife  sultry and have been for a week. We've been having an amazing time. We've gone on several shopping sprees and got alot of food. I'm sure I have gained quite a bit of weight from this trip. I'm surprised at the food portions in america. The sizes of the drinks to be specific, they are huge cups that are bigger than my head.. I'm really happy to be with my wife regardless america is a really interesting place to visit especially Texas. It's not at all what I expected not everyone even has an accent. In fact most people I've met do not have an accent at all.

Since this is such a special occasion and to mark it all tonight I am going to get a tattoo. It will be my very first tattoo and I'll likely follow it up with many more in the future. SO EXCITED!

..<3

1) Tell you something I learned about you by looking at your FA page for 13 seconds.
2) Tell you a color you remind me of.
3) Tell you my first memory of you.
4) Ask you a question.
5) Tell you something I like about you.
6) Tell you the object that is in front of me.
7) Dare you to do this yourself in your Journal

So I just got a letter in the mail from Immigration Canada saying that I've been approved to sponsor  sultry to come to Canada. Now we just wait to hear back from the Visa office. It has been such a long battle and we aren't done yet but we are one step closer we are over halfway there literally all that's left is waiting to hear back from the visa office. They are going to ensure that our relationship is a legitamite one. This shouldn't be a problem because I've submitted ample ammounts of proof. We are both so excited that we are making progress. The battle is almost over FA. We are almost there.

It's been a while FA, did you miss me? I only recently got back into the furry community. I've missed it a fair bit. I've missed that close family environment. I've realized recently that my li9fe is absent of a father figure and it's been driving me crazy. My father is kind of distant, he raised me as a boy and doesn't really care about my accomplishments... not that I have many to list. In my heart I'm still that child looking for her parents. It's weird really, I mean I have RL parents but with them raising me as a boy which they barely did any raising my father says I raised myself I just barely feel close to them. I wish I had another family. Even just a father figure to talk to me and be proud of me. I wish someone would take me in and give me a second chance at childhood. Wow this journal is way too personal I don't like letting people in that much.........

I'm supposed to be this tough motivational transgender chick who doesn't take any guff from the world I'm Anarchy Alice... oh well I guess even I have weak spots and problems. My biggest problem in life is my absent father figure. I wish he would have been closer to me and raised me like he does my sister but I don't get that. So I'm looking for a second father. someone to care about me like I was their own daughter. Naturally this person would have to talk to my wife as well. I don't want her to be uncomfortable. I kind of have someone in mind but We''ll see if they come forward naturally, I'd like it better that way. Oh and to be clear though this should go without saying. This is COMPLETELY non sexual. Even a big brother would be okay for the meantime.

Rules:

1. You must not keep me a secret. I am your daughter, not your dirty little secret, you should be proud of me not ashamed
2. This is not sexual and please do not expect anything like that, that would be incest.
3. You must actually talk to me, no specified ammount even just once every few days just to check up on me. I'm sure talking to me won't be that hard I can be surprisingly mature.
4. You must talk to my wife at least once. She is very supportive of this whole thing, I just want her to be comfortable.
5. I am your daughter and I will act as such. I will listen to your better judgement as long as it isn't absurd or against any of the above rules. and I will report to you on how I'm doing, accomplishments etc. It will be lovely.

I just realized how long it's been since I had art done of my fursona... it's been WAY too long. I feel like she might have changed a little bit, become more rebelious... then again I'm not entirely sure. I feel like though that she needs "something" I really just need to get some art done of my fursona. I miss having art to post even though I don't draw it I enjoy showcasing the art of others on my page it gives so much more variety than if I were to draw it. (not that I can draw anyway)

I want to get a tablet and start drawing, I had a friend say that they were going to get me a tablet for christmas but at the same time with me being colour blind I don't know how that would work out. Oh well perhapse I will just do lineart or just learn placement of colours I'm pretty resourcefull.

I would love to digitally paint oh my if I get a tablet that would be so much fun.

Also this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5LmW.....6&index=11

I keep disappearing :( sorry about that guys and girls. Also I have gotten alot of followers in the short time and as such I really won't be able to thank everyone so I'll do it here.

THANK YOU TO ALL MY NEW FOLLOWERS I LUV ALL YOU GUYS!!! etc =^_^=

So I'm back with a new piercing *pics later* I got my monroe pierced and I love it. Probably taking my lip ring out but nien. (my wife is criticising my spelling as I write this so this will be a QUALITY JOURNAL entry)

So yeah I've kind of gotten lost in a world of tumblr and role plays. I forgot how fun role playing was but now I've happily gotten myself back into it on an old site called Gaiaonline. Anyway enough about my life. How has everyone been?

So, I'm still alive. Since my last journal not much has changed as far as what's going on. I've been in and out of mental hospitals, diagnosed with Bipolar and Borderline Personality Disorder. I've ridden in an ambulance and made everyone around me cry. So it should come as no surprise I haven't posted journal's after all I really hate posting whiney journals and having people reply *hugs* I'd rather just be ignored. So I didn't bother posting until now that all the immediate drama is done.

I'm going to once again try to get active on this site though I'm unaware how a person is "active" here.. it's been a while.

Yet again I've changed ALOT like I think I'm a completely different person after all that's happened my views have kind of changed so I just kind of figured I'd post this just to clear up any weird vibes you may get from me. It's nothing personal I've just been through more than I care to post in a journal and it's had a very serious impact on my life.

On the good side (for me) I got my lip pierced, I've grown rather fond of body mods and look forward to many more (maybe)

Anyway I'm sorry for this post, I hope I didn't come off too harsh or strong. I hope you all have been well and feel free to message me.

So I went to the ER the other day after having a few manic episodes and contemplating suicide I realized I needed to act now or I was done for. After going to the ER I was seen by 3 people. One for an initial evaluation to determine how seriouse my case was then soon after a student doctor and then a Psychiatrist. I was subjected to evaluations for all of 9 hours.

In the end I was perscribed with medication to treat bipolar disorder. I'm on 500mg of Divalproex and 10mg of Citalopram. I've been taking them for about half a week now. I'm definitely not suicidal. I'm not manic, and I'm not depressed... so I guess they're working. Except they make me numb and feel extremely docile and weak. I live with no visible fear of anxiety but I'm so weak.

I no longer really game much I just sit and watch japanese videos and cute things. I feel like if someone poked me with a pin I'd feel nothing... is this what getting better is for me... better is numb......

Oh well.... I don't totally hate it, it feels warm and safe.... I hate this needy feeling I have all the time because I feel so helpless but... at least I'm alive....

So work got sorted out and I did not end up losing my job, though it was pretty intense for a while.

Cool news is I have been elected as the Transgender Representative for my province on a group called ARC which does most of the LGBT stuff in my area. So I'm on two boards now. Bout time we got a Transgender community, it's been a long time coming. I'm pretty pleased I get to be at the forefront of helping it happen.

Also people reffering to me as male. FFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!

I want to not suck at playing Ahri anymore. She's my favorite character and winning matches with her is so much fun bing the girl on the team and kicking boys ases. It's got some kind of charm to it

But alas as of late my LOL game has been down. I hit level 10 and now I'm fighting better players... players who are suddenly more skilled than me... I DON"T WANT TO MAIN TEEMO ANYMORE!!!! I saved up all my Influence Points to get Ahri. Someone HALP ME

Also I have the flu and I'm a retard right now I keep crying and wanting to vomit and being all emotional all over the place. it's not even fun anymore

OH and I might lose my job due to getting fired hwo cool is that? I'm not super scared as I've been offered other jobs but still YUCK!!!!!!!! anyway throw up time.

I'm really raging right now. well I guess only kind of. You'll notice I don't post here much anymore. I don't really feel that words can accurately express how I feel.

I'm a reject. I guess it doesn't bother me anymore. Even though I don't know many other rejects I know they are out there and that I'm not alone

MOVING ON!

There was this lady who spoke to me a while ago about how my mother was terrible for not supporting my transition and how if it was her son she would be supportive. My mom used to get really pissed at people not supporting her strife as "they don't know what it's like".

WELL....

This women just came up to me today and her son just came out as transgender to her at the age of 16 (same age I told my mom) Her [I'm going to say daughter now] daughter was having hallucinations, just like I used to, has tourettes, just like I do, and suffered horrible depression, just like I do, oh and was put on Cyroquil, JUST LIKE I WAS

So how did this women react when her child came out to her? She took her newfound daughter and got a refferal for hormones in a WEEK. It took me 6 months to get where this child is. Not to count the years I was in hiding because when I came out at 16 my mother refused to assist me.

I gave this women my email if she ever needs help with local resources and I thanked her profusely for being a good parent and congratulated her. I was nearly in tears. I am so happy for this child to have what I could not. TO go through highschool as THEMSELVES.

However on the other hand I am reminded of how that choice was taken from me. I was forced to live as a male for 5 years, harming myself, doing drugs, getting involved with sex workers, attempting suicide.... those are the gifts and the scars my mother gave me and it's hard not to hate her for it... even now she calls me a boy. she tries to accept and is getting there but even so I find myself wanting to scream at her... That's why I have to fight so hard for transgender children. So they can have the choice I did not. That's why I'm joining a comittee for my local LGBT organization to raise awareness for transgender issues.

But still.... I wonder if it will ever stop hurting....

So I got my big fancy computer built. Pictures maybe later. It's got 16 gigs of ram and 2 Radeon 7770 video cards running crossfire. I also purchased a surround sound system. I have finally built my universe and just in time to partake in some escapism/hikikomori behavior.

I've since become a huge fan of Minecraft and am about to jump headfirst into League of Legends. I mean how can I not play with a character like this: http://na.leagueoflegends.com/champ.....he_9_tails_fox

The world around me is ever crumbling and friends are constantly fading. It seems logical to retreat into my CPU and try to salvage things. Maybe make some new friends along the way since it's not working out in the outside world.

So I started that dreams blog. Unfortunately it seems my dreams can be really dark.

If anyone wants to read and give input it could really stand ot help me out.

I must stress the images in my head CAN be VERY disturbing and I do not censor them or try to flower the up. Read at your own risk.

http://dreamswithalice.blogspot.ca/

So.. I just told off a customer... I mean it was barely telling of it was really gentle.

Customer: What's wrong with your guys's internet tonight?
Me: I'm not sure sir I'm not aware of any widespread issue, why is something happening
Customer: Well my modem lights are flashing!
Me: Well I'm sorry sir but I don't know what's happening at any individuals house at the moment, let's take a look.

I mean pretty light but still... I can't believe that slipped out. I've been losing my patience at work, it's getting to me. They are planning to switch me to another program because my stress is clearly visible and I'm good at my job (minus this call)

My supervisor pulled me aside one day and asked me if I was okay as he's on my facebook and thus sees all my messed up thoughts. When he asked me what was wrong I told him I was losing it and that talking to [company name] customers were like taking a tac hammer to my eye.

He understood and is working on getting me to another less stressful program.

Also I'm thinking of starting a dream blog... any thoughts on that anyone?

What color are your underwear/panties?
White

Do they have a design?
They have a heart on the upper front and a bow

Girls, what color is your bra?
Pink

Is there a design?
A bow on the front (I like bows)

what color are your socks?
Black and white

Is there a design on them?
Stripes at the top (They're knee high soccer socks xP)

Are you a virgin?
No...

Happy that way?
Undecided/leaning towards no

What is your favorite sex position?
d...doggy/cowgirl/missionary

What is your sexuality/sexual orientation/What the fuck do you consider yourself?
Lesbian

Do you look at hentai?
Yep

Real porn?
Nope

Do you read smutty/porn stories?
Yeah, love em

Do you read/watch/look at gay porn/hentai/stories?
Yeah, defo!

Who was your first kiss with?
Family member

Are they of the opposite sex?
No

Have you ever kissed or had sex with someone of the same sex?
Yep

Is there any one of your friends that you would ever consider having sex with?
EVER, sure I have in the past

What would you do if you walked in on your partner having sex?
Close the bedroom door and stand in the hallway thinking and listening a moment. Then go sit on my computer with a drink (non alcohalic) and wait for them to finish. I would ask how it was for them and get an explanation and work with my partner to understand why they cheated and what was lacking in the relationship that they had to go behind my back. In the end everything would probably be fine.

Do you have any piercings other than your ears?
Yes

If so, where?
Septum

Do you have any tattoos?
No

If so, where?
No where

Have you ever been pregnant/got a girl pregnant?
No

Ever done any illegal drugs?
Yeah, here and there

If so, which ones?
Marijuana, mushrooms, hash, Salvia, and a mix of things that I can't remember

Have you ever cheated on someone?
No.

Ever been cheated on?
Sure thing.

Have you ever been called a whore/slut?
Yeah my dad called and calls me a slut.

Do you own any sex toys?
Yeah absolutely.

Have you ever had a sexual fantasy involving a relative?
Distant cousin yeah. Close...nah

Have you ever masturbated?
Duh LOL!

Have you ever taken a naked picture of yourself?
Yeah

Have you ever taken a naked picture of someone else?
Yes.

Are you on any form of birth control(the pill, the patch, etc)?
Yeah, estrogen LOL!

Have you ever written/drawn smut/porn?
Yeah. I love writing it there is just no demand for it and I have no idea where to post it...

Do you swear in front of your parents?
Yep

Do they care?
No

Are you uncomfortable yet?
Not anymore, was at the start

Are you taking this quiz of your own free will?
Yeah. Trying to do things that make me uncomfortable. and express sexual freedom and all that.