I'm not gonna delete it. At least not till i am comfortable with the idea. Much of the stuff i have here i am proud of... but i am understand why i struggled to draw the entire time i was on this page and on ink bunny.

Its literally not for me. But i drown myself in this art while telling myself i am among people who care. You guys care as much as anyone else and thats not a bad thing. I was lying to myself... that is a bad thing.

I need to actually take a proper look at how life works around me and stop hiding my head in the sand. I believe that i forget things as a defense mechanism. Because to remember them i have to acknowledge some truth i do not approve of. Its hard being honest with yourself.

I know i am an excellent artist.

I know i can make a decent living off my work.

I need to grow up first. Being an uncle is by far the best thing to happen to me. I know that taking care of someone or something was a good way for me to focus on being a man and that type of responsibility has only been given to me once in my life. And i did not recognize it.

I will be going to pixiv and creating art there. My DeviantArt and Inkbunny pages will also be abandoned and i'll take a select few pieces from each to start on pixiv. I'll share my screen name there if you ask.