Just a quick update. I haven't been active on here really since gay pride back in July. Life has been really interesting and throwing me all sorts of fast balls. But it threw me a really hard curve ball around a week ago, almost two weeks ago. My dad has been an alcoholic for a very long time, but only recently had he shown signs of depression. We had tried to talk to him, to get him help, but he would never admit he had a problem. And would just drown all his problems in alcohol. My grandpa (His dad) had back surgery recently and they knicked the spinal bag and some fluid leaked out and he had a bad reaction to being put under. All he could do was roll around and moan in pain. My dad became really depressed about that and his job keeps laying off people left and right.

We had been arguing before this all went down over something stupid and something just snapped. He locked himself in his room with my moms gun and was screaming at us that he will never be enough and hes done. Mom told me to go get the police (we live in a township and we have one on duty almost everyday) Long story short my dad pulled his gun on the cop and got shot. Suicide by cop. It's putting mom and I through a lot of hell right now... so I am not as active... not that I was active much on here to start with.