So I don't normally don't talk about my birthday. But well this year is different is different. Now this isn't about"yey celebrate me and give me stuff because I was shat out of a vagina!" Nah this is me just talking about my restless thoughts that are plaguing me all night. So here I am 5:30AM sitting at my pc While listening to some music.( the weeb shit I'm listening too as I write this https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dEs.....tml5=False#t=5 Fucking sue me I love their sound m8) But yeah I had no sleep so forgive my typos and grammar fuck ups.

Anyway this is just about what I think is to come and me being thankful for the people in my life. Anyway here I am 23 thinking about when I was ten all excited that my age had two digits in it and feel so big and proud of myself surrounded by my dweeby friends all of us can't wait can't wait to be cool adults and what the fuck ever. But hell I go to store see these old dweeb friends of mine I grew up with most of them are now huge military beasts with wives and kids. It's just so...strange to see. even though I was always the oldest in my little group of friends I think I'm the last to grow up. Can't drive, afraid to work. Just sitting here playing my games with skype friends and watching movies and history documentaries all day and occasionally getting high, wondering why one internet friend hates another and getting caught up in it just wanting to fix it. Hell I bet to the average person I'm a pathetic sight heh. But sometimes I think I'm pathetic and I squandered my youth. would I do it again? Hell yeah! Because well to all my close friends here (you know who you are) and some rl I'm shaped into the person I am and think the way I do. I may mention some people by name in a bit. But hell even though I have a good amount of regrets I still try to enjoy the life I live and the people I spend it with. And sometimes I'm thankful here wasting time with you lot instead of being some douche zombie average mook who does not dare to think outside the box and just helped me grow as a person.

Like my douche mate  KilltheSergal kinda taught me that sometimes you gotta be a harsh douche sometimes and not afraid to be honest. Now I'm not as cold and douchy as he wants me to be I did learn a thing or two from the fuzzy jerk off. But yeah thanks for helping me deal with people and not being such a push over that I used to be. Love ya, you big giant faggot. (Also here's some never seen before porn of me and Kill getting it on. http://mlkshk.com/r/KALS )

Then there is  Pentalis . Now we don't talk all too often Pen but you're still a very close person and when we do talk it's always enjoyable. We get a good laugh out of each other when we do. But most of all your wisdom really taught me to not to act on my emotions like a fool and try to stay calm and try to think things through. Honestly this was one of the most helpful things anyone taught me. Thank you so much fuzz dragon.

 polinga You always where there for me when I was in a pinch. Out of everyone, I knew you the longest. Hell it's been like six years now? But yeah you are a very helpful friend and I look forward to being roomies someday man. Thanks for all your help over the years and the good laughs.

 Dragonsergal Yet another good friend with unique and great advice. I love discussing spirituality of Germanic paganism with him and kind of consider him a mentor in the matter. But I love just sitting down with you and chatting about paganism, history, and the world affairs and exchanging views and opinions on ideologies from around the world. you really helped me discover a lot about myself as well in some aspects. Look forward to talking some more.

Then there is this cheeky cunt!  Adam0800 Oh man every time I'm talking to this guy there is a big stupid grin on my face. Since day fucking 1 with this bloke it was nothing but cheeky banter and shit posting. God best way to make a unique friend. I hope things are going well for ya man. Looking forward for the next session of cheeky banter m80. http://img.ifcdn.com/images/689df00.....0f3d3285_1.jpg

 Broomsicles Yet another good friend of mine who I enjoy a nice quiet chat with and giggling at stupid things. Honestly when it comes to art you inspire me to draw again sometimes. This guy has a great voice and is clever as all hell. you been a great friend too me over the years and I hope it stays that way for a long time.

 Grilder123 This little shit talker is a fun little friend of mine with a big heart. Even though he can be a paint in the ass, he's one the most kind people out there. Seriously this guy stuffs art down my throat because he's just the fucking nice! I CAN'T BREATHE! Go commission him and stuff.

Wow  Ahole great work, keep it up! A friend of mine who has taught me to think differently and someone I can really be open and close with. you're always there when I need you man. I'm thankful for the time we spent together over the year and getting to know each again. I feel our friendship is stronger than has ever been.

 darklord92 This one keep corrupting me! I swear she sits in the deathstar twiddling her fingers saying"good good let the weirdness flow through you."

Then there's  someoneepic Things been rough recently, but with bad there is good. you help me not become too cold and closed off and someone's company I enjoy. Can talk to him none stop till we pass out. But like everyone in this list you had quite an impact on me in many ways. And despite what some may say or think I am glad I met you Eli and I'm happy to reforge my friendship with you to make more great times and goofing off and just being a pair of stupid peeps with the evil squishy bird  darklord92 .

As for those not mentioned don't be bummed. A lot of people had quite the impact on my life. I'm sure you know who you are.

But yeah. I feel like the age of 24 will be a interesting age for me that might fine the person who am for the rest of my life. Or maybe it wil lbe no different than my 23rd year life of being alive. but I do feel like it will be an interesting age reguardless. I just hope it will be a good one that I can look back on and say"I wish I was 24 again"

Well if you are reading this you sat through my tired early morning ramblings. Sorry if it seems scatterbrained and all over the place, but again thanks for reading about me spilling my guts all over FA like some sappy faggot. Now I'm going to attempt to get some rest.