I just want a new gaming notebook already so i can play my most favorite modern game Dead By Daylight again like i used to. I felt good, man. Every time i return to FurAffinity and upload artworks and i don't see any progress, it just demotivates so much. I can't take it. Every time i return fresh, then i burn out super quickly because i don't see any point in continuing. I should be getting so many new followers and so many favorites with each upload, but i don't.

Then i look at other artists who appeared on this site one year ago. Completely new names that never appeared anywhere else before. Even i don't know them and i know a lot of artists.
They draw objectively worse than me. Only one year and just a handful of drawings yet they get soooooooo many followers so quickly. How do they do it? What's this secret? Why do you like their artworks more than mine despite the fact that i am a better artist than them? I could never wrap my head around it.
What's your problem with me? Something is wrong here. It's not how life is supposed to work. If i put effort into something and i draw well, then i should be getting a lot of progress, but i don't. Why?

I have so many followers yet you all do absolutely nothing to help. And i see how you add other artists' artworks to your "favorite" gallery. You add almost all of their artworks to your "favorite" gallery. You don't do this to me. Why? You give them so much support. Why do you even bother following me if you don't do anything else?

Is it because i am a bad person? But you are all even way worse people than me, so why the fuck would you ever judge me? I mean, none of you even answer my questions, so that alone already proves that you are bad people.

I don't know, man. I'm going to take a break for a few months.