Hey, I hope you're doing well.

I've been meaning to make a post like this for awhile but everytime a landmark or holiday comes when I think it'd be appropriate I end up talking myself out of it. In all honesty, I've never really had a page like this before or an audience and as a fairly antisocial cat, I never really know what to say or when to say it or if anyone is even listening in the first place. I figure it's time to finally just say "fuck it" and get this out regardless, but I just wanted to let you know I really appreciate you (yes, /you/) and all of you and I really just wanted to say thank you.

Art has always been a big part of my life but it's also something I've tended kept to myself, the age old adage of "it's not good enough" or "no one cares" ringing consistently, keeping me from ever really doing anything with it. Truth be told, I started this page out of spite, a combination of being in a shitty place in life and a nasty breakup just had me so fed up with everything, I was ultimately just trying to prove a point to myself. Regardless of the circumstances though, I'm very greatful that I did. I didn't really think it'd manage to garner more than a few passing glances, figuring it'd just fizzle out but its been quite the opposite. I've managed to make something I'm really proud of, I've met alot of really phenomenal people along the way and it's really given me this drive to improve, both artistically and in myself. It's been a really rough few years, depression really gets it's claws deep in me, frequently, but this page has always been a highlight and a reason to keep pushing on. I just want to bring you all nothing short of my best, and I'm going to keep at it and keep improving until it's nothing short of /the/ best, and again, it's all thanks to you.

I've got alot of things planned this year, a bunch of shit going on which has me excited but also perpetually stressed and that's not even mentioning depression and mental disorders sidelining me constantly. It's been pretty rough and I apologize for the silence but after being nagged at constantly (loveuguys🥺) to interact with you all more I'm going to try and communicate just a teensy bit more often than not at all, I promise. I'm planning on opening up and advertising commissions soon, me and a friend have been hard at work on an album (which I figure this isn't the best place for it per say but we've poured about every ounce of our heart and soul into it so you're getting it) and I'm hoping to eventually wiggle into some cons at some point. I'd like to manage to get this to a point of being able to do it as a living, that's the dream atleast, but I figure small steps are the best way about it and right now im just trying focus on posting more than once a month.

Anyways, that's enough rambling out of me. Again, again, again I just want to say thank you, it's kinda hard to properly put it into words without coming off as corny or cliché but genuinely, from the bottom of my heart, thank you, I appreciate you all.

Peace,
saudax