Disclaimer: Before you read further, understand I WILL be talking about stuff you likely don't wanna hear. Reality sucks.


So... watching the days go by and the slow and steady decline of all things;

My mom's health... crikey, she's 97 yaw'll. There IS an end to it all eventually.

The planet: Have ya ever heard of the Remora? It's a parasite fish that attaches itself to it's host and slowly sucks the life out of it. Unlike the tick or a leach, it doesn't fill itself and swim away to let its host live for another day... digest its meal and look for new prey. No. It stays attached until its meal ticket dies. Stupid fish. Humans are the same. We've attached ourselves to the planet and are sucking out all of its life we can, as fast as we can. As if all the shit we rip out of the ground... all the water we casually pollute... and the air we poison... as if it'll magically replace those resources FASTER than we are using them... or fix what we abuse so callously.
Long back, in avation, there was a term pilot's used... called 'P.O.N.(a)R.'... meaning the Point Of No Return. When fully calculated... load vs power vs lift vs runway length, it literally means that invisible line where, if the brakes were NOT applied at (or before) that point, then there was no way to avoid a crash if you did NOT lift off. I have a pretty good feeling there's a PON(a)R for our planet. And she's hit it a few times before. Ice age anyone? I think we forget we exist here at HER blessing for if she gets to the point where she's had enough, there is NOTHING you pitiful humans can do about it. Maybe we don't go extinct like the Dinos... but, be sure, there won't be half of us remaining. More like 10%.

My nation: Gonna get grief here but I am NOT blaming Trump. Trump is just another symptom of the disease. For a long time we've been walkin down this road... to our end. And, strewth, it's not like it was NEVER gonna happen. Name ONE civilization that HAS NEVER blown itself up and rebirthed out of the ashes? China has done it so many times I think they should know the way by now. You would think... with the history of humanity... that we'd see our past with knowing eyes and say, "Hmmmm... that sucked.... let's not do that again." But, nope... we forget and we refuse to learn. We have wonderful sayings for it all too! "That only happens to other nations." "We're smarter now so that won't happen." "Oh, the world has changed so those things won't happen again." Ain't life grand?
America has been on a long slow walk off the cliff for most of my life. Our attitude sucks... "We're the greatest nation on earth!"... our egos are so over-inflated it's a wonder any of us can walk through a door. We're spoiled... entitled... arrogant... ignorant.... I could go on and on but I can offer a comparison. France. When the aristocracy was SO bloated and full of itself that (falsely) Marie Antoinette was credited with saying 'let them eat cake'. While not true, it does point out the gianormous divide between the classes and the masses and we all know the end result of such blind ignorance of self that brought about the revolution and the demise of that nation... then reborn from the ashes.
So, yes. If you study history long enough you see the patterns of self destruction of past nations, great and small... and we're solidly, and steadily, walking right down the middle of that road. Will it happen before my time expires? (shrug) Who knows. And he ain't talkin.... even if Horton says he heard him.

My health; I called up H.G.Wells about his time machine... but he ain't talkin. I did a google search for the fountain of youth... Siri died laughing. I got the miles, many far too rough... and the warranty is expired some time ago... and the repair shop wants more than I've made in my entire life. Aches, pains, a thyroid that has a split personality disorder, a lump that comes and goes... as does my hips and knees... and I ain't growin younger.

I don't mind. Like mom, the end ain't something you can avoid forever. Whether it's your end, someone you love, or your nation... there are no breaks on this ride. And the ride doesn't stop to let you off either. When it's your time, you just get violently ejected into the abyss. Maybe I can rise from my ashes? Or... maybe it's time to find a new existence... somewhere not here. And no, I ain't checkin out early... so chuck that dingo vomit into the trash where it belongs. When this ride gets to my stop, I'm grabbin my body pillow and a parachute and hope like heck I have a soft landing.