i havnt been around on this account for awhile, i know. sorry to all of my watchers and friends ive made here, i felt i owed some kind of explanation, so here it is, even if it isnt really a good one...

i dont really know what im doing anymore, my life kinda went to shit last year and it made me step back and take a look at things, like a serious look.

ive felt more and more dissociation with this account and many of the characters ive created on it as time went on, as well as just going over how much money i've spent trying to get art of everyone in my OC collection without abandoning any characters. meanwhile making money and just living comfortably has been a huge neverending shit-storm since Covid hit in real life....

i took what i intended to be a short break from all this, and months later im still not sure i want to come back to this... however, i still love the little worlds i created and the characters in them, and i spent real money won by hard work in the real world on the wonderful art and stories i commissioned. so this account is here to stay.

i'll check back here every now and again, i dont know if i'll ever fully come back to this account and make it fully active again. i cant even really fully explain my feelings correctly either, i'm not a psychologist... i dunno. i just dont know