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here i go complaining about my mental state again wheeeeeeeeeeeeee
this year hasn't really been that great on me, nothing terrible has happened but ive just kinda been numbly floating around with no real sense of direction of what i wanna do with my time/my life or if im even still doing a good enough job at being myself, there has been a lot of fun events and amazing milestones for myself (went to a few concerts, got to meet my online best friend ever, and i finally have a group irl friends to hang out with!!!!!) but ive just kinda been doing nothing in the meantime between it and just been extra tired out this month
i know around this time 2 years ago is when i also entered another emotional rut, but i feel like ever since july ive kinda had to force myself to scrape through the bad moods just to get to draw 1 little thing and now all my art motivation has evaporated too, even with stuff i planned on getting to and even just trying to think of what to casually doodle
there's not much in the outside world to look forward to and im not sure if its just me getting older or the whole world fundamentally shifting itself so that people get more annoying and loud and confusing and shifting their priorities to default to fighting eachother instead of giving them a chance to be kind (this part is not related to anyone or any event and maybe im hypocritical for still getting bugged by little things sometimes )
im sorry that i havent really done much lately or been as social as i feel i used to be, i still appreciate everyone sticking around and those who find my stuff cool and all the cool artists and people that i get to meet on here/discord/anywhere on the web who are just makin cool ass things
this year hasn't really been that great on me, nothing terrible has happened but ive just kinda been numbly floating around with no real sense of direction of what i wanna do with my time/my life or if im even still doing a good enough job at being myself, there has been a lot of fun events and amazing milestones for myself (went to a few concerts, got to meet my online best friend ever, and i finally have a group irl friends to hang out with!!!!!) but ive just kinda been doing nothing in the meantime between it and just been extra tired out this month
i know around this time 2 years ago is when i also entered another emotional rut, but i feel like ever since july ive kinda had to force myself to scrape through the bad moods just to get to draw 1 little thing and now all my art motivation has evaporated too, even with stuff i planned on getting to and even just trying to think of what to casually doodle
there's not much in the outside world to look forward to and im not sure if its just me getting older or the whole world fundamentally shifting itself so that people get more annoying and loud and confusing and shifting their priorities to default to fighting eachother instead of giving them a chance to be kind (this part is not related to anyone or any event and maybe im hypocritical for still getting bugged by little things sometimes )
im sorry that i havent really done much lately or been as social as i feel i used to be, i still appreciate everyone sticking around and those who find my stuff cool and all the cool artists and people that i get to meet on here/discord/anywhere on the web who are just makin cool ass things
Category Artwork (Digital) / Doodle
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Gender Any
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File Size 2.9 kB
i feel it's most likely this, both burnout from all the change (not even exclusively related to Current Events but just this whole year and finally learning a bunch of new things and how to fend for myself but still working way harder than i used to) and pushing myself a bit too hard just cause i didnt feel like i was doing enough, but thank you so much for that and i always like taking a step back from things from time to time!!! i've been having fun with hanging out with irl friends most wednesdays and those have been going well, as well as just finally giving myself more of a break and catching up on a backlog of fun retro games, and i appreciate that and thank you so much!!!
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