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Owning Up to Old mistakes.
6 months ago
I made disgusting art in the past.
Please know I am not the same person I used to be.
I am now a couple years shy of 30. When I was 17-21ish I did a few pieces of art here on FA [1 feral dog drawing and 2 pony related] that I do not think is okay. I'm so sorry for the person I was. I really am.
I didn't think it was okay at the time and I dont think is was okay now.. I never wanted to do nsfw but I was 18 and it was the only time people asked for commissions and i was desperate for money. This isnt an excuse but an explanation. I was living with an semi-controlling ex who was pushing me to make money when I had crippling anxiety and couldn't get a job. I couldnt get sfw art to sell and as i did more and more nsfw art, people offered more for a few very very gross commissions that i thought were gross but i justified it with 'its this or im homeless'. I took them because my ex and I were struggling with money and I was scared he'd leave me if I didn't start making money from my art and i was living across the country away from my family. He was all i had and the desperation for money was the main reasoning I gave myself for doing them. Please know that I never enjoyed doing them, i never thought it was okay, and it was never easy. They always made me uncomfortable. I do not stand by what I did at all. No matter the position I was in, it was wrong. It doesn't excuse that, but it explains where my mind was. I know a reference sheet I did on my most recent old account was wrong too [anthro with animal genitalia]. It has since been deleted and I denied 2 more refs asking for them immediatly after realizing how uncomfortable it made me to even drawn something so normalized by people on this site. Feral porn is not okay. Anthros with animal genitalia is not okay. And I am done with nsfw art as I don't believe it is right for me to stay in the community of it.
I want to be what I originally wanted to be. A sfw warrior-cat artist. That is what this account is. It's me starting over and learning from my past mistakes. I have deleted those old accounts and all the art I made under them [excluding the recent because i have 2 commissions to finish for people there. Both not related to all this.] I'm starting new. I'm older now and I dont want people thinking I'm still that desperate person that I was. I'm not doing just any art for the money anymore, this is my job and I'm a responsible and good artist and I love the warriors content I make now. I am a fully sfw artist from the moment my old account is gone. This is who I want to be.
If you choose to unfollow me, I completely understand and I'm so sorry for my mistakes and I appreciate anyone who ever supported me and my art, staying or not. <3
Please know I am not the same person I used to be.
I am now a couple years shy of 30. When I was 17-21ish I did a few pieces of art here on FA [1 feral dog drawing and 2 pony related] that I do not think is okay. I'm so sorry for the person I was. I really am.
I didn't think it was okay at the time and I dont think is was okay now.. I never wanted to do nsfw but I was 18 and it was the only time people asked for commissions and i was desperate for money. This isnt an excuse but an explanation. I was living with an semi-controlling ex who was pushing me to make money when I had crippling anxiety and couldn't get a job. I couldnt get sfw art to sell and as i did more and more nsfw art, people offered more for a few very very gross commissions that i thought were gross but i justified it with 'its this or im homeless'. I took them because my ex and I were struggling with money and I was scared he'd leave me if I didn't start making money from my art and i was living across the country away from my family. He was all i had and the desperation for money was the main reasoning I gave myself for doing them. Please know that I never enjoyed doing them, i never thought it was okay, and it was never easy. They always made me uncomfortable. I do not stand by what I did at all. No matter the position I was in, it was wrong. It doesn't excuse that, but it explains where my mind was. I know a reference sheet I did on my most recent old account was wrong too [anthro with animal genitalia]. It has since been deleted and I denied 2 more refs asking for them immediatly after realizing how uncomfortable it made me to even drawn something so normalized by people on this site. Feral porn is not okay. Anthros with animal genitalia is not okay. And I am done with nsfw art as I don't believe it is right for me to stay in the community of it.
I want to be what I originally wanted to be. A sfw warrior-cat artist. That is what this account is. It's me starting over and learning from my past mistakes. I have deleted those old accounts and all the art I made under them [excluding the recent because i have 2 commissions to finish for people there. Both not related to all this.] I'm starting new. I'm older now and I dont want people thinking I'm still that desperate person that I was. I'm not doing just any art for the money anymore, this is my job and I'm a responsible and good artist and I love the warriors content I make now. I am a fully sfw artist from the moment my old account is gone. This is who I want to be.
If you choose to unfollow me, I completely understand and I'm so sorry for my mistakes and I appreciate anyone who ever supported me and my art, staying or not. <3