I’ve been really quiet over here for a long while so I think I should update.

I had created another account here in an attempt for a fresh start. Nothing had happened but I just felt like I wasn’t really getting anywhere on this account anymore. I’m definitely more active on my new Twitter earthtomarrz

In an attempt to not have a breakdown I’m gonna keep this pretty blunt and short. My husband passed away suddenly in January. I’ve been struggling which honestly is an understatement. I moved back home with my parents. I’ve questioned everything. Why him? Why me? What is this punishment for? It’s all really really hard. Both of us are young. I shouldn’t be a widow at 27 and he shouldn’t be gone at 30. There’s so much I’ve had to navigate and things I have had to take care of myself because I was his wife so I have to get all the info etc. and it can get really heavy really quick. It’s been a slow process and on top of it all, a major identity crisis. We were together for almost 10 years married for almost 1… I have to relearn how to exist “on my own” I miss him every second of the day. He was my soulmate, my twin flame. I know he’s still with me each day, just in a different way- I know he’s around. I’d still do anything to get one more hug, one more kiss, and one more “I love you”

If you’re interested in any art (which I work on slowly, but I do still draw) you can follow me on Twitter. earthtomarrz
Thank y’all for all the support here over the years. I just struggle staying active on this site anymore.